The Past Will Destroy You if You Don't Let Go
You can just decide, right now, to be a better person.
“No great thing is created suddenly, any more than a bunch of grapes or a fig. If you tell me that you desire a fig, I answer you that there must be time. Let it first blossom, then bear fruit, then ripen.” — Epictetus, Discourses, 1.15.7
Dear reader, I want you to listen carefully. You can let the past go. Right now, in this sentence, before you finish your coffee. You can just decide to be a better person. You can wake up today and refuse to repeat the same patterns you picked up in childhood- thoughts and actions that lower your self-esteem, make you paranoid about what others think, and push you into habits that chip away at your self-respect or sabotage your potential. You can stop letting anxious or depressive thoughts ruin your day before it even begins. Just as Marcus Aurelius discovered in himself,
“Today I escaped anxiety. Or no, I discarded it, because it was within me, in my own perceptions — not outside.”
You can decide to carry yourself like someone consequential, a legitimate child of the universe. Like someone building something no one else can see yet- but soon will. Like someone chosen- because you are. You can stand taller, speak with more gravitas, dress better, and act as if you were meant to contribute something useful in the world. You can act like someone who expects respect. You can choose to be more assertive without cruelty, more sociable without servility, more magnetic without trying. To stop playing small. You can absorb the traits of those you admire- their virtues, speech patterns, mannerisms- even when they threaten your ego, especially when they threaten your ego. Learn what they do right. Take what serves you. Leave the rest. Because those traits might be the very things that raise your survival odds, help you master your craft and cement your place in the world. That way of being is yours to claim. No one, except maybe you and the insecure ones, can scold you for embodying who you were born to be.
But none of this works without awareness. We can’t remodel what we haven’t seen. You must learn to study yourself from a distance- how you act, speak, react, diminish yourself, the excuses you give- so that change becomes possible.
Still, there will be moments when reality hits you sideways. It won’t match the self-image you’re building. You’ll feel like an imposter. You’ll want to revert to the older version of yourself- the smaller, more familiar self. Or perhaps you’ll do so well, but since the good you’re experiencing is alien, you’ll desire to go back to your trashy life because at least you’re comfortable there. That temptation will be strong.
But this is where you double down on your convictions about eminence. This is when you remember that every great man has gone through this same stretch of doubt and disorientation. It’s part of an illustrious life. And the point is to stand firm. Not to feel good at every step. To adapt, yes- but never surrender your purpose and values. Like the rock Marcus Aurelius described- battered by waves, unmoved in essence. Life will do what it does. It hits everyone- struggling or not. But only a few make it through with grace, with their principles intact. Only a certain type of man wins: the one who applies himself where he has control and refuses to waste energy on the rest.
The discomfort and temptations that rattle you today aren’t infinite. They come in waves. They follow a patterns, the gaussian curve. They rise. They crest. Then they fall away. Marcus knew this too- that’s why he reminded himself to mark out their limits and not get overwhelmed. That’s strategy. That’s power. Meet distress like a strategist. Train for it. Anticipate the wave, and when it comes, practice your algorithm- This is nothing. I’ve seen this before. It won’t matter in a few hours, a few weeks. I’ll stay strong. I’ll be better after it. I’ll resist today, then again tomorrow.
And one day soon, you’ll say, “I just decided to stop this- and I actually did.” Or, “I decided to keep going despite the fear & discomfort, and now look at me man… I have more power, peace, wealth, confidence and happiness than I could ever dream of. I believe I can figure out anything.”
That moment will change everything. Because now you know you are who you say you are. When you say something, you do it. When you declare power, health, mental clarity and strength are important, you go for them. When you decide you love yourself and are worthy of respect, your actions propound to echo that truth. You can rely on yourself under pressure, in the ebb and flow of life. More people trust you. And there’s an enduring joy and pride in that.
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This is so good! We all need a boost to help us see our potential. We each have so much potential that is easily squashed by the voices of refusal (fear, self-doubt, etc.) that hold us back from flourising.We can put aside those voices!
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