This is so good! We all need a boost to help us see our potential. We each have so much potential that is easily squashed by the voices of refusal (fear, self-doubt, etc.) that hold us back from flourising.We can put aside those voices!
It’s like you read my mind. I really needed this today.. I’ve come a long way, six hours by train to volunteer in a community garden. I’ve only been gardening professionally five years, there’s so much I don’t know and I feel so out of my depth here surrounded by very clever people, designers, landscaper architects, scholars,
who went to good schools and had a good education. I feel like an impostor and I hate the negative paranoid critic in my head telling me I’m about to be found out they’ll realise I’m not clever enough and that I don’t belong here. I just wanted to learn about how a community garden works and learn more plants and surround myself by inspirational people.
I’m doing a good thing and yet my ego is feeling so uncomfortable. Is it envy, bitterness ? I feel a bit angry that my sense of self is so fragile. Take me out of my comfort zone and my inner dialogue completely changes. It’s very annoying. I’m here doing a good thing and I don’t need all this negative shit in my head. I’m working very hard all week ignoring it. Positive affirmations telling myself I am worthy, but still there’s a feeling I’m pretending to be something I’m not anyway. I waffled on long enough but just wanted to say how much I needed to read that tonight.
Thank you. I’ve been working on gaining more control over my reactions and habits. I’m currently listening to The Body Keeps the Score — and honestly, I find parts of it hard to sit with.
This article felt like it was speaking directly to me. I’m in the process of recreating my life at 51, starting from ground zero. I don’t talk much about what that looks like yet—I’m still shaping it.
I’ve made a decision to leave the rubble where it is, step over it, and build something new. One micro-change at a time. Each small shift changes the trajectory.
I keep reminding myself: if you don’t feel like it, do it anyway. Don’t listen to the self-doubt—it's a liar. Keep going, and you’ll see.
This is so good! We all need a boost to help us see our potential. We each have so much potential that is easily squashed by the voices of refusal (fear, self-doubt, etc.) that hold us back from flourising.We can put aside those voices!
Ever felt like someone is writing directly to you?
Needed this.
Thank you.
It’s like you read my mind. I really needed this today.. I’ve come a long way, six hours by train to volunteer in a community garden. I’ve only been gardening professionally five years, there’s so much I don’t know and I feel so out of my depth here surrounded by very clever people, designers, landscaper architects, scholars,
who went to good schools and had a good education. I feel like an impostor and I hate the negative paranoid critic in my head telling me I’m about to be found out they’ll realise I’m not clever enough and that I don’t belong here. I just wanted to learn about how a community garden works and learn more plants and surround myself by inspirational people.
I’m doing a good thing and yet my ego is feeling so uncomfortable. Is it envy, bitterness ? I feel a bit angry that my sense of self is so fragile. Take me out of my comfort zone and my inner dialogue completely changes. It’s very annoying. I’m here doing a good thing and I don’t need all this negative shit in my head. I’m working very hard all week ignoring it. Positive affirmations telling myself I am worthy, but still there’s a feeling I’m pretending to be something I’m not anyway. I waffled on long enough but just wanted to say how much I needed to read that tonight.
The only thing that will destroy you free the past are the lies and the people attached to them.
Thank you. I’ve been working on gaining more control over my reactions and habits. I’m currently listening to The Body Keeps the Score — and honestly, I find parts of it hard to sit with.
This article felt like it was speaking directly to me. I’m in the process of recreating my life at 51, starting from ground zero. I don’t talk much about what that looks like yet—I’m still shaping it.
I’ve made a decision to leave the rubble where it is, step over it, and build something new. One micro-change at a time. Each small shift changes the trajectory.
I keep reminding myself: if you don’t feel like it, do it anyway. Don’t listen to the self-doubt—it's a liar. Keep going, and you’ll see.
Really good stuff. Thank you