Diary of a Stoic (Nov 16-17, 2022, 2023 & 2024)
On Hope / Fear / Should we Judge Other People?
It’s scary to show my diary to the 3500 + of you. And I probably shouldn’t do this as it might be used against me. But fuck it. I’m not my psychological wounds. I hope my vulnerability in the last three years impacts one of you for the better.
Can I cease both hoping for and fearing certain outcomes?
November 16, 2022:
Morning Reflection
Yeah. I'll be comfortable in the pressure instead because strong is the type of man philosophy has always wanted me to be. She wants me to prove that I'm worthy of the glorious throne I desire - of power, happiness, and tranquility. I don't want to live and die a pussy. I want to face whatever threatens my peace so that I can dominate it.
Evening Reflection
It's cool to be unperturbed by circumstances, especially if they are prone to breaking people. There's pride in knowing that I'm standing strong, not complaining or fearing my duty as a man and servant of the gods. Weakness isn't something to esteem because it doesn't affect me, it hurts those who depend on me to perform. I'll bite the bullet and despise death, for this is my destiny.
November 16, 2023:
Morning Reflection
Yes. I'll try my best and instead focus on what I can do at the moment to prepare or to change my perspective about what's happening. Whatever happens will be good nonetheless, so I can feel the pain of loss, or discomfort, but I shouldn't give in to self pity because I'm the person responsible for myself and whatever happens in my life. No one else. The back stops with me and it's upon me to see what to do, or how to act to make the situation work in my favor – which is also how nature would want things to be.
November 16, 2024:
I'll love what is because it's in no way bad. I've experienced worse before and I didn't die. Things will take the natural course they always do, so I shouldn't concern myself with any of that as if it'll change anything. What I want to focus on is what I truly control – my actions, my process, and my attitude. I'm so glad I've experienced some of the worst events in life: poverty, psychological angst, anxiety, loss, heartbreak, because it introduced me to my strength, which gives me a fuck you attitude to whatever life throws at me. I'm still whole. So I'll love where I'm at and adorn it with the goodness inside me through my actions. No one can stop me from that. That's how I make the most of it.
Is it really my place to judge other people?
November 17, 2022:
Morning Reflection
No, it's not. Instead, I'll love people with all their faults because then I can assign them a place in my life if I have to. Or just let them be. Judging them entangles me with their idiocy and because of that I end up wasting a lot of time and energy, which I don't have an infinity of. I'll focus on the faults I need to correct in myself and keep working to improve my condition and become one of Michelangelo's beautiful pieces.
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